Here we go again!

Once upon a time it was here we go again. Way back then when all we knew was sin. The same mistakes made again and again. Tit for tat type of lifestyle we were livin in. I can't imagine my own children doing some of the same things I did. My way of thinking was twisted from the beginning. I had no idea what it was to count my blessings or anything about repenting. I didn't know what I could inherit in exchange for my soul. I wasn't aware that God opens his hands to those who are lost and are looking for a way out. That all we have to do is reach up and cry out, run into his open arms and let go of every doubt. When you harbor anger in your heart it makes it impossible for God to recognize your shouts. God will not reside in or near the presence of hatred and anger. If you have hate in your heart God will not hear you out. Unless you're willing to be saved and give your life to Christ you will see no positive changes in your life. It becomes exhausting seeing the same things over and over again. Do not be deceived; God is not mocked. He can't see you unless you've accepted Jesus into your heart. He can't help you if you continue to shut him out. You and you alone must hold accountability for what comes out of your mouth, your actions and whereabouts. Living in the flesh you will reap what you sow. He who is without sin cast the 1st stone. Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. Love everyone as you love your self. When you see those in need offer them help. Life is what you make of it and everyday you have choices you're faced with. You can say yes to the flesh or follow the holy spirit, try and make your own path or continue seeking his promise. I need God by my side every day of my life to continue to guide me through my daily battle between wrong and right. What God offers us is real, don't miss your opportunity to face what you feel. Everybody has a choice. Here we go again. Our choice is clear, start choosing right or continue to live in sin.

**UPDATE 2014**

SO. THIS WILL BE THE UPDATE OF THE CENTURY. IF YOU'VE FOLLOWED MY BLOG SINCE THE VERY BEGINNING YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN WITNESS TO A LOT OF THE HARDSHIPS I'VE BEEN THROUGH THESE PAST 3 YEARS. YOU MIGHT ALSO BE AWARE OF MY LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP WITH A MAN WHO HAS BEEN INCARCERATED SINCE 2007. I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER TO REPORT THAT HE WAS GIVEN HIS RELEASE DATE. THIS DATE IS SO SIGNIFICANT BECAUSE IT MARKS THE BEGINNING OF A NEW LIFE FOR MYSELF AND MY CHILDREN. SINCE THE MOMENT I FOUND OUT I'VE BEEN ON HIGH. NOTHING CAN BRING ME DOWN. NOTHING EXCEPT FOR THIS DATE CHANGING. BUT IM CONFIDENT THAT WONT HAPPEN. I CAN'T BELIEVE THE TIME HAS COME TO WELCOME BACK A VERY SPECIAL PERSON TO MY LIFE. MY DREAMS ARE BECOMING REALITIES. MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED. MY FAITH IN GOD IS STRONGER THAN EVER. MY HEART HAS BECOME FORTIFIED WITH A NEW FOUND STRENGTH THAT I NEVER KNEW I HAD BEFORE. I FEEL THE BEST I'VE FELT IN A LONG LONG TIME AND THINGS ARE FINALLY COMING TOGETHER FOR ME AND MY FAMILY. IM READY TO BEGIN THIS NEW JOURNEY WITH THIS MAN THAT IVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH SINCE THE MOMENT I LAID EYES ON HIM. IM TAKEN. MY HEART BELONGS TO CARTOON AND HIS HEART BELONGS TO ME. WE WILL MAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP WORK THROUGH THICK AND THIN. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE HOW THINGS WILL BE IN THE NEXT SHORT MONTHS TO COME. FOR NOW, ALL I HAVE TO DO IS STAY STRONG AND KEEP MY FAITH. PRAY FOR THE TIM ETO CONTINUE TO PASS AS QUICKLY AS IT HAS AND TRUST IN GOD THAT I AM ON MY CORRECT PATH. EVERYTHING ELSE WILL FALL INTO PLACE. WHAT IS MEANT TO BE WILL NATURALLY UNFOLD. THAT I CAN TRUST. I LOVE YOU MR. CARTOON AND I'LL BE SEEING YOU VERY SOON. I'LL LEAVE THE REST TO IMAGINATION. #XOXOSUPPLIER

Against the Ropes

I've been caught up in a wrestling match between God himself and the World. He tells me what I need to hear while the World sets me up to fail. I can hear him in my conscience guiding me to make the right choice but just when I'm ready to listen, the World comes in and blocks my vision. I know what God wants me to do but I can't help but to dispute his decision. I know better than to question his plans and take matters into my own hands. I trust that what God wants is what I should want too but the World is a constant reminder of the turmoils I've been through. I can still feel the pull of the World wanting me to make my own decisions but God tugs at my heart to just listen. He is begging me to take his word serious and trust in his divine plan for my existence. I'm torn between right and wrong, forgetting and forgiveness. The advice I've been given is to leave the situation alone and let it go. What is meant to be will naturally unfold. Somehow, even though it sounds so simple I am still struggling with my own worldly indecision. What I know and how I feel are conflicting. It is my worldly instincts not to be willing to let go of a situation when I had no control to begin with. It doesn't seem fair to let things go when I keep getting hit with these knock out blows. The things that occur in this World, we can not control. I get it. But how can you tell me to just let go and forget it when there are consequences that go along with every decision. If I give in and let God in the ring I will have to sit back and let him win my battles for me. If I let the World in the ring I will have to fight for what I believe is right. I'm torn between the World and God. Torn between right and wrong. Torn between my head and heart. Unsure of who I'm rooting for, I'm looking in from outside the door and I can't believe this is really even happening. But, I'm still stuck in between God and The World and I can't tell who will win this round. I guess my only choice is to sit back and watch the match unfold and hope the end result doesn't leave me out cold. After all, God is the undefeated heavyweight champion of the universe so I'm sure he'll keep the belt. I just hope I'm conscience when they ding the final bell.