Perception

The boldest pain is the one no one ever sees. It dwells deep beneath the surface like a monster of the sea. It waits patiently to feast. It festers and grows rampant like wild weeds. It crushes everything in it's path. It blinds the eyes and takes over the mind. It steals all of the focus and robs all of the senses. It's the songs that play on repeat. It's wanting to reach out but always choosing to retreat. It's the tears fought to keep at bay. The welling that has no escape. Walking away when you prefer to stay. It's laying alone at night. It's dreaming of their face. It's seeing them and pretending to be ok. It's feeling crazy and pathetic. It's going over everything they said until none of it makes sense. It's losing who you once were. Losing the thrill. The wanting things to be different. The sitting awake reminiscing. It's becoming accustom to tasting salty tears. It's realizing your greatest fears. It's losing the only thing that ever came close to making you remotely happy. Having nobody. Having someone who doesn't want to have you. It's all of the unanswered questions. The guessing. The relentless waves of unwanted emotions. Being swept asunder. The never knowing. The idea of never. This pain that no one ever sees hurts the worst. It's rabid like a feral wolf. Always sitting in the darkness ready to attack. It's loving someone who doesn't love you back.