Update 2018

It's been a while since I've laced y'all up so I figured now is as good a time as any. I hope and pray every person who reads this jumbled junk is well in health. I realize there may or may not be people who read this blog that don't like me or have some type of ill feelings toward me and that's perfectly fine. I don't mind. I just don't understand why anyone would waste their precious time investigating the life of someone they don't really like. My plate is quite overloaded so I just can't imagine spending even one minute trolling someone who holds zero weight in my life. Like, what's the point? But that's a whole 'nother story I suppose but Hi! Since you wanna know what's going on in my life. :) I can say this, if we have never spent any time together, face to face, then you honestly can't say you know me. So you really shouldn't try to judge me. Either way, I appreciate the views and someday this will be published too. Road block after road block have prevented me from really working on any of my latest projects diligently enough to have made any significant progress. It will happen. Mark my words. I have at least two projects in the works. This book, "My Jumble" and a book about my 30 something days in custody, "Prayers for Building 12". Writing a book is a severely time consuming project, especially if you want to do it right. The 1st book I ever wrote is trash. I am glad I didn't pay an arm and a leg to market it. It's out there though, always and forever. An accomplishment I will always be proud of just don't boast about. Anyhow, enough with the veggies and potatoes, let's cut into the meat shall we? So, the last time I did an update, I was jobless, kid-less, homeless, penny less, love less, sinful, troubled, on the verge of roping myself up and jumping off, all of the above and nothing good. That being said, I am a survivor at my best. I stumble often and have fallen into holes too deep to climb out of but somehow and some way, I have always found my way back to my feet again. I have cheated death in a sense. I've been robbed but have been repaid. Life is not a game but I have had my fair share of pauses and stops, continues and saves, game overs and restarts. I'm hoping I have finally beat the boss and copped my trophy because frankly I am tired of playing. While we're on the subject I'm real tired of being played as well. I don't know where I've been or what Memo I missed but since when is every 20-40 something guy a piece of shit?? I mean it when I say I can't catch a break and I'm not sure if it's due to where I've been grazing or if it's just the types of guys I'm dating? Either way, they're no good. The selection is looking pretty bare. It's tragic really. All of the potentials are taken or too busy paper chasin' or they live too far or they're involved or they're just plain not interested in barking up my tree. Fine by me, I guess that means I just have to get used to being with me. Try something different. Focus. For once. Perhaps. Sorry, more on love later. I am happy to report I've been at my job for over a year and get paid pretty good. I got the kids back in July, I still live alone, just them and I. I am still in school. I am in my Master's Program for Psychology, taking classes online. I'm enjoying the experience. So far, so good. I haven't been this financially stable ever, so there's that. I love my little car but I know I have to get something bigger. I have been pulled over twice, the 1st time I got away with my life and the 2nd time I wasn't so lucky but at least I wasn't drinking. I'll leave that alone. Overall, we're good. My kids are happy, I am in a good place. We try to go to church and pray as much as we can. I have really great friends and my mom's support. Me and Baby-D aren't on speaking terms but that's no surprise, he's married now and expecting his 7th child. I wish him the best I just prefer to keep my distance. As for his relationship with our kids, that's fully up to them. I have nothing to do with that. They're all old enough to pick up the phone now so he has no excuse to hit my line. I don't want to jinx myself as usual, so I won't touch very much on this but I will say that I met somebody. He's something else, like from a different time. I'm invested is all I will say. Y'all know I like to leave you guessin! :) I have learned plenty of hard lessons over the last 3 years. For now, I am good and that's my God honest truth. I'll leave you for now, stay tuned for what is to come. I am nowhere near done. Listening for the trumpet sound but I'm focused now, with my ten toes on the ground. I wish the best to all of you, even if you don't toss it back. That's straight. Take care! Be good. Keep dreaming. Keep loving. Keep praying. Live your own story the way you want to. Don't take any shit from anyone trying to tell you any different. Kiss your babies and your significant others. Make time for yourself and your hobbies. Get money. Strive. Thrive. You're alive. Live your best life!

love, hugs, kisses, and with all that I am... I love you writing, my one and only true love. You will always keep me honest and for that I am eternally grateful.

XOXO From your local XOXO Supplier
-Linds aka TxMolasses aka TxPiece aka TxToast
You love me but I love you most!