14 months

I can't concentrate again.
Those thoughts are creeping back in.
Why Him?
What happened?
What I did.
What I didn't.
Things I said. Things he did.
Things he said. The way I reacted.
There are so many ways I could've played that.
I didn't.
I took for granted the time we had.
I feel like an idiot when I'm around that guy.
Why would I miss someone who makes me feel that way?
How?
I hate that I can't focus again.
I hate that I still want to reach out.
I hate that I still want to talk.
I miss his face.
His voice.
Him.
With me.
I just wish I could take it all back.
Forget.
Now, all that's left is the music and regret.