I'm an idiot, my head's in a fog. My thoughts scatter so
quickly in every direction I can't catch them all. I need to get it together.
When I thought I had it together. I'm confused. I can't follow everyone's
advice but I can't even listen to my own. Why is it when I convince myself of
anything, I can't change my mind quick enough? I know I've put myself here, so
why now do I wish I were standing over there? I just want to call him. What
harm would it do? I hate that my mind and my heart are confused. But I'm not
confused, I did what I did and said what I've said because it was exactly what
was floating around in my head. So how can I feel this way? What is my problem?
We got problems. Why can't I just figure out the equation and find the right
way to solve them? I think I may be in denial. Or maybe I am just crazy. I miss
speaking to him daily. How can I possibly miss him after I so harshly dissed
him? Jesus Lord I can't take this anymore. I need a break from me! That part is
dead, I guess I just needed to clear my head. But I've been Chained to Free so
unexpectedly.
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