I rest my case

I never could have imagined ever feeling this way. Since the day I first saw your face I knew you'd be in my life, I didn't know how nor why. I went from being everything in your life to dead in a matter of just a few words exchanged. Boy isn't it something when your whole life is up in the air? Someone once whispered this advice in my ear, he said to me then, "When your whole life is up in the air, that means you've got to aim high!" and I've not forgotten it since he uttered those genius words into my life. If I knew what I knew now type of reminisce. What's been done is part of the past now and what's been said, well now that will linger on a while, but what's been said has really already been done. There is no more platform under the sun, if wading in the deepest waters won't have you won well then I'm done. I give up trying to please the displeased. There will be no more attempting to build any type of bridge to walk upon. I can no longer formulate plans without your input but I've been over run, put out, tossed to the wayside in a sense. When the direct path is not leading you where you want you've got to figure out some sort of detour that will take you that far. Until then it's useless to continue giving in. I've foregone the instructions on how to forget the countless beatings which have ensued. During this time of self preservation I've neglected to seek salvation and do what I had initially set out to do. Leaving that building naked was the worst thing to do. Instead of using God as my guide and shield I let the devil walk with me and blind me from my primary mission. So I failed. Now I will pick up where God left off and continue on with my mission. I fell hard but I can get back up with conviction. Now I am unstoppable. Now I am uncompromisable. Now I am determined and with force will move through any obstacle. You made a mistake in thinking I would sink when you so violently threw me overboard and drove away watching my fate bob in the water. Now the ghost of my prior falter will come and haunt you and you will have sleepless nights and you will not enjoy the numbered days of the rest of your life and you will constantly have the feeling of defeat deep within the chest you hold out and your soul will constantly cry out and your satisfactions will never be satisfied and you will forever be surrounded by your spawn but will feel nothing but loneliness the rest of your life. Meanwhile, I swam to shore, washed off the dirt. God says I'm pure. So I move on from here with a brand new lease on my life. God has given me another chance to walk right by his side. No more will I allow the devil to walk into my life. I have severed that tie from this day forward and the rest of my God given life. I am new. I am adopted. I belong to the Lord and he gets the last word on where my ship will sink. You my friend will be watching from the depths all of my success. For now I rest my case.